SHE.HER.

trouble number 1.
something major happened. (at least that's how i feel)

i dont know how to handle. i dont know how to face the problem and the people around me.

girls are such sensitive creatures. that makes me one too. and im those ultra sensitive.

i dislike the giggling and whispering behind my back.

i dislike the expression on their eyes.

i hate the qns that they ask and the comparsion they make.

i know that it's going to disturb my normal working time.

trouble number 2
how trustworthy are those people working around u?

when u treat them as real buddy, someone whom u can yak to when you are feeling down at work, someone whom u can complain to when i met a weird customer.

however, i was informed recently that she behave otherwise behind my back. i was told by her own self that she did it this way. but i was told by another person she behaved the exact opposition. i dont know who to believe.

someone whom u trsuted. someone whom u see 5.5days a week. someone whom u lunch and dinner with every working day. and yet this has to happen. i dun noe who to believe.

i really trusted her 100%. but this has to happen. and i m doubting myself. i felt really hurt. i felt the feeling of being backstabbed.

i dun noe how to face the company, and her in the coming working days in the office.

i wanna change job~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(this co. isnt an ideal one anyway. it's hopeless. i have been wanting to quit)