even my laptop has to die down on me. =`(
all my data and photos in my laptop.
y does it has to remove my memories in my laptop as well?
no one to hold when i fall.
no shoulder to lean on when i cry.
no hand to hold on to when im scared.
i was trembling. i was shivering. i was crying.
all by myself.
i shed more tears than i ever do for the last few days.
till my eyes went sore. and i had to hide this feeling within me.
i dont wish to be strong. i dont wish to bottle up all my feelings within me.
i just need your hand, your shoulder and your hug.
of all times, all bad things have to happen during the same period.
it's sad when im sad but my tears cant flow.
it's sad when im in trouble but i cant get out of it.
im glad i have friends whom i can pour my whining to.
however eventually, im still stuck with this.
and i only have myself to climb out of it.
the climbing process is tough. lots of steps.
i need the support. i need the courage.
lots of them in fact.
i suddenly feels that i have no motivation to carry on.
i have no aim. no goal. i lost my energy to carry on.
im lost. v lost. im countin the days when each day passes.
hoping for the time to pass faster.
humans study. get a skill. get a cert.
then work. to earn money. to feed themselves.
then in the end, die and leave this world.
i wonder what's the next stage after this world?
how will it be?
has been v emo for the past few weeks. hence this entry.
sighz.
