it's a short trip. 4 days.

excited. yet nervous.

happy. but stressed.

it was smth that i dream of doing.

now that im in this line, i hope i can enjoy what im doing.

travelling with this group of frens never fail to cheer me up.

we are noisy yet sensible. we are loud yet demure.

we are always full of nonsense. talkative always and forever.

the only time when we are quiet is when we are asleep.

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when i thought a break would do me good after working non stop for 3mths.

but it turned out to be otherwise.

i just felt so frustrated.

i didnt have time for myself.

i cldnt do the things that i want to.

there's so much work to be completed. never ending.

i dreamt of work each and every time.

i had no one to understand my situation.

i didnt have time for my friends.

i got so irritated when i cldnt reply them when im free for a meet up.

i work OT when there's uncleared work.

but no one seems to recognise this effort.

they do not understand. they thought that work's easy.

duhz.

office politics sucks to the core.

who's in the mood to work when there's such a no-system system.

everyone else complains to me.

but what can i do.

i dont own this place. deep sigh*

that's y i wanted a break. but this break adds on to my burden.

something major happened.

am i too sensitive? am i being unraesonable? or am i childish?

humans that's complicated. who else's there to blame except for myself?

i guessed there's things that i need to sort it out first before i carry on walking.

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it has always been so diffcult to live up to my expectations.

or rather the expectations that the society requires us to.

the society doesnt allow anyone to make mistakes.

once u make a mistake, others will pinpoint at u. and start to emphasize on ur mistake rather than those 99 correct things that u do.

what's the big deal? HELLO! 1 mistake that u made out of a 100 and ppl starts to see u in a different way. duhz.

and i dislike the fact that i have to do impression mgt.

i've lost my sense of direction suddenly. and i hate myself for that.

i cant wait to find a job that i like. a job that requires me to run ard instead of staring at the com. for the whole day in the super cold office.

i cant wait for mid sept to come.

i dont want to wake up 630am anymore jus to leave hse at 700am to catch the co. bus at 735am.

i dun want to end work at 530pm but only rch home at 7+pm.

i dun want to be "forced" to eat rice anymore during lunch. ( but i know they meant well ). i hate to eat rice.

i dun want to be treated like a fool. hmmm.

i dun want to be in that super cold air conditioned room that makes my finger nails turn purple.

i dun want to be in that small space that im confined in.

COS i want to be in a line that i like.

6wks have passed. another 7wks to go. >_<

however.. i got to admit that i've my fair share of laughter there as well. there are v nice ppl there that i know. =DD

cos im new. it's kinda diffcult to bond into their grp. 6wks of interaction vs 1+/2 yrs of friendship for the rest. that i unds.

so, i didnt actually feel left out when they din ask me to join them for this and that.

i want to learn to be independent. rem?

i miss my loud screamings. long time since i last scream damn LOUD.

i miss running ard. rushing here and there.

i miss yakking nonsense. i miss talking rubbish. i miss doing funny faces.

was in town last fri. lookin at the ppl ard. i dun know when was the last time i dressed myself up. F***

boring office attire. even if i were to dress up a little bit, i will invite ermmmm "gossip"? cos ppl there dun make up. i was wearing a cap into office that day. OOH COME ON! obviously i wld wan to take off my cap when i start working. jus a short dist (50m? or less than that) and i got attention. errrrrr. a cap.. and i got attention. come on~~~~~ youngsters wear cap. and it's not that im wearing it the whole day in the office. u can call me NUTS if i do that.



i want freedom. and a job that i like.

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this is my life after examz. going out almost every night.
fri(01-06-2007) and tue(05-06-2007) night with this girl. thanks for the movie treat!! =D
when 2 psychology students get tgt...muhahaha. it's so fun evaluating the movie after that. keke.

on sun..03-06-2007. went youth park. and off to party world after that with my 5-of-us gang!!
i wanna blogged abt Mayday's concert on 02-06-2007..but i shall do that when i got the pics.

i feel tired gg out every night.. = = but it's nice to catch up with frens whom i havent seen for a long time.

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